Roman Phoenix Ray

Following my presentation, it was discussed that I need to think more critically about my approach to fields and frames.

I was given ideas of, taking photos of Roman and Hannah and their relationship, especially because she didn't feel this sudden rush of love everyone had talked about, its been a struggle and Hannah felt she was the only one feeling this way, but after posting her feelings on Instagram saying that she does now love him completely, so many people turned to her and told her that they had felt the same way.

She also felt because she knew the sex of Roman there wasn't going to be any surprise to when he came out, other than what he looked like. Roman has had this massive impact on our family, in a way giving my mother a reason to sort her self out.

Another idea was photographing items that represent Roman and be more abstract in my approach, because photos of babies had already been done by almost everyone.

So the question is how do I intent to make it different?...

I guess that with more tutorials it will come out a bit more clear my intentions to what I intend to produce. but in any case having a go at trying 35mm film especially with the dark room workshop on Monday the 19th. But I also wanted to continue with my DSLR because of Pro Tools advanced photography.

A lot of my photos I didn't want them to be posed because I felt that 'in the moment' is obviously more real but real emotion and you can see how they felt in that moment.

Following from photographing his representations or possessions to see if that could tell more of a story, I didn't want to loose my passion in my idea, but i'm almost too close to it as well to have a critical reflection... However I know what I feel looks good and what doesn't.

Learning about Lightroom I can create both collections and catalogues to decide which ones work and which don't and also showing what I have done to Rosie in tutorials. However I am limited by this in terms of analogue film but this is easily solved by digitising them or scanning the negs in to my computer or even scanning in the processed images.

Developing idea

Following my discovery of Memories composed it got me thinking about family. Following from my portrait series of Hannah and bump 'Then there were three'













I wanted to further this and take photos of Roman in the classic family photos like this ->

I either want to take photos of Roman individually, take photos of Roman and put them in an order which almost creates Romans face, or take photos of his body like photoshoot of baby Kellen by Memories composed 

Memories Composed 

Roman

I've still got to decide how I want to lay everything out, but I wanted to follow on from my bump shoot. 

I want to try and shoot using 35mm film 

Memories Composed

Memories composed is a blog written by a women called Sarah, she has 4 children.... unfortunately her youngest passed away, his lung didn't develop correctly in the womb and he had a cleft palate.

After many tests the doctor came back with a scan of his lungs, the doctor explained that at this point he would be unable to recover from the damage done to his tiny body. His oxygen levels had been at a low level for too long and he was not going to be able to handle the rigor of the machines much longer.

Sarah and her Husband Josh knew there wasn't really any decision to make. After some discussions with the doctors they decided that they would place Silas in Sarah's arms and slowly take away the machines that were helping his lungs function. Eventually the room cleared and it was just a few of them left, Sarah doesn't write much more which happened on that sad day other than the prayer Silas' grandfather said.

Her family took some photos of those moments they had with him.

All of this made me think about how short time really is, its infinite but also too short. My sister which if you remember from a previous post when I photographer her, her partner and soon to be son when he was in the womb. Hannah was given a 5 year window to have all if any children before the medication she'd have to go on would cause her to become infertile, and also being told she might not be able to have children... but she had little Roman who turns one soon.

It also made me think about me, I also when I was in the womb my mother thought she had a miscarriage, but because it was a Sunday she wouldn't be able to find out until the Monday.... it was then discovered that there was a similar sized pocket next to me, which suggested that I had a twin... But 7 months in to pregnancy the umbilical cord clogged up and I was getting what I needed to grow, this meant i was very small, when I was delivered I was blue and wasn't breathing, before anyone could get a proper look at me I was rushed away the moment they got me to take my first breath. I then spent the next week or so in the neonatal intensive care unit as I couldn't keep myself warm. Once my doctors were confident that I could keep my self warm they let me go home, weighing a very little 4 pounds.

Its at this time that you realise how important family is and the family photos.